America

I’m content to sit back and watch it all come crashing down. I’m content to say I don’t care anymore. I might as well do nothing, for why should I do anything else? What is the point of caring about what happens? (God knows I’ve tried.)

Does this sound negative? Why does it matter? Is it worth fighting for? What power do I have to make any meaningful difference? Why shouldn’t I feel this way? Does it really matter how I feel? Why should it?

In the moment, none of this matters. Cause and effect cease to exist. Power and control are illusions. Emotions are attachments to illusions. Attachments are unnecessary for the moment to exist.

There is no crashing down in the moment, so there is nothing to sit back and watch. It makes no difference to the moment who cares, because it simply exists as it is. Doing comes out of being and does as it is. Caring comes from attachment to conditions; but what happens will happen nonetheless.

Negativity is a material condition, with an equal and opposite positive. Each are requisite to the whole, the Truth. Fighting is resistance, attempting to make a meaningful difference involves effort. Effort and resistance are material conditional, so are the acts of feeling and doing; therefore they matter, but it doesn’t matter why. They simply do as they are. Being here now involves none of these things.

In the moment, nothing matters; there are no conditions. Material projection is manifested by the mind and body, and the mind and body are manifested by the Spirit in an act of Consciousness. It is the material projection that splits into the duality of positive and negative, the illusion of separation.

The duality remains a condition of polarity. When an emphasis is placed on the negative material condition, this is what is described as a depressed state; a phenomenon that correlates with a deep felt-sense. Opposite to this, is the positive material condition. This state of creativity, is also manifested by a felt-sense. Each in balance allows the whole to resonate. Conversely, when the whole exists, each will exist as one; for balance indicates oneness, which is the everpresent moment.

In any case, I have just allowed my original lamentation to regress into some metaphysical discourse so I could digress from being pissed. I went to the library to do some work (pissed as usual) and became sidetracked when I picked up America, by Robert Crumb. As pissed as I was, it had me in stitches while it validated my own perceptions on similar matters, and I read through it in about an hour. Crumb effectively describes existential depression as manifested by dissatisfaction with the establishment, as he questions (and boldly, but effectively lampoons) the relationship of public policy, consumer economics, and popular culture with our personal and collective experience of reality.

He seems to be getting to the deeper argument of conditional reality through his self-deprecating, offensive-to-most, brand of humor. He seems to be to what is illustrated, as Lenny Bruce is to what is spoken. At any rate, this subversively satirical work is a good read for those who are intimately familiar with the real history of the past three decades - and are pissed.

J